tom

She wonders more and more about exactly what and how much of it she is supposed to give up? When does someone’s willingness to go without, one’s sacrifice cross the line into “bad marriage?” She takes stock, a lot. She makes lists, a lot. In the end, what keeps her here is one word: family. She knows what divorce does to a family and she’s convinced there’s no way around any of the repercussions and ramifications. But what about her, herself, her being? When does her satisfaction, her growth, if there is such a thing (and she thinks there is), become selfish. When does self-less become dangerous? Because the bomb does have a timer and she does hear the ticking. She talks to her friend, Betty, about all of this. Betty simply listens. She’s either too smart or too cowardly to get involved. So, it goes and so it is, she tells herself. The worst thing is that Tom is a good man. No, what’s even worse than that is that she knows it.