sadness

What makes his sadness
seem
worse, at least
to him
is that
for some reason
everyone
around him seems
happy and he wonders: are
they, really,
or is it just me? He doesn’t wish
them unhappiness or sadness,
but he
does feel left out and
that
makes it more
difficult to navigate. It’s a funny
thing,
this feeling bad, he thinks,
not so humorously. The way it would seem is to
be around happiness,
but often being around it only exacerbates
the
pain (and makes it worse, too,
he thinks, redundantly, which makes
him smile, a bit – and
that’s not
a
sad
thing).